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[Sep. 16th, 2009|
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Thank you so much Cameron and Diana Hummell. I love you guys like family. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[Sep. 10th, 2009|
2:11am] |
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Hi. My favorite part of the day is coming home and Rocco acting like he hasn't saw me in months. I love him. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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| LIFE |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|
11:21am] |
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So life right now, really?
I'm not even sure where to begin.
Its september 3rd. and I'm still in this whack state Colorado. AH.
February, Kris, fucked up really bad. Was playin me the whole time we were dating with his girlfriend of four years. How? I'm not even sure because I like...slept at his apt like everynight. haha
Then, I met kev. Dated for like two months and then we moved in with eachother. haha. Yeah I know that was dumb. We broke up and We still live together seeing how We are both dumbasses and signed the fucking lease together. ah.
Anyways, I got a puppy for my birthday. I siberian husky who is the most adorable little boy I have ever seen. His name is Rocco and he is the love of my life. He is very vocal and loves to talk and laugh. Really. He howles and its really cute. He licks my eyes to wake me up.
My grampa, still chillin. Ya know.
MonaVie, Best thing in the whole world. Gonna make me a millionaire. :)
BRIT PUTS THE BIGGEST SMILE ON MY FACE YOUVE EVER SEEN. He probably doesn't really like me and he just uses me for rides. like he did last night. It's all good. Hes just another one of them.
But its okay because by the time i'm 23 I'm gonna be a self made millionaire.
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[Jan. 3rd, 2009|
12:18am] |
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He called me today to tell me I was beautiful:) Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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| My new years resolution |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|
11:26pm] |
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Get a boyfriend. So I got a full time bartending job at this place called Damon's like 3 minutes away from my house. Its so sickkkkkkkk. The place is real real nice and it's attatched to this hotel called the Ramada. I love it. Hopefully I make good money. New years was ok. Hung out with most amazing guy ever. Actually. I'm trying to get back to jersey. But this job is just to good. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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[Dec. 27th, 2008|
8:06pm] |
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nights are fucking gay. seriously.
and boys are so fucking confusing. i shoulda never left jersey.
actually yeah i should of. but i shouldn't have. fuck.
UGH SERIOUSLY EML
oh and by the way christmas...that shits a fucking joke anymore. I was so out of it the whole day and nothing made sense. sirens are fucking scary.
my grampa needs to make up his mind haha.
never get a motel room with a guy you really like...because then you'll just end up liking him like 3827439827 times more AND THEN YOU REMEMBER THAT HE'S NEVER GONNA LIKE YOU LIKE THAT AND YOU'RE JUST WASTING YOUR TIME BUT THEN YOU REALIZE HOW AMAZING HE IS AND THEN YOU DONT WANT IT TO END SO YOU KEEP TALKING TO HIM AND KISSING HIM AND STUFF AND THEN YOU ONCE AGAIN REMEMBER THAT HE DOESN'T WANNA ANYTHING LIKE THAT AND THAT HE "DOESN'T FALL IN LOVE WITH GIRLS" AND BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH.
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[Dec. 18th, 2008|
1:50am] |
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It would be 1:50 AM currently and I am not drunk. Its pretty sick.
I just looked at this picture that you and I took of eachother...like the first picture we ever took and I got so sad it was almost unbelievable. I was just like whoaaaa whoa whoaaaa. hahaha. shit.
Pretty sure I completley hate my life right now.
I quit my bartending job because it was so dead and pretty sure it was gonna shut down anyways. I got this job at this art distribution company and haven't made a fucking dime and started working last friday haha. I love everyone i work with though. Like even my boss is so sick. Basically I worked with nate all day on friday and when we got back to the warehouse at like 5:00 there was two thirty packs sitting on the pool table and my boss came up to be and shoved a beer in my hand. haha pretty sick.
but its kind of like...a commision based job. and I mean I'm pretty good at it just the people ive been dealing with all have dicks up their butts seriously.
hahaha oh and I met this great guy who just happens to have longer hair than me. hahaha.
"yeah dude her car has stage 2 racing clutch and twin turbo she eats STI's for breakfast."
"dude thats not true her car doesn't eat STI's for breakfast."
"yeah and her car has a switched out engine. She really does eat STI's for breakfast."
"Yeah right I know if I raced her car in an STI right now I know I would eat her car for breakfast if we raced down your street."
"Nah dude I'm pretty sure you'd eat yourself for breakfast because you would hit that patch of Ice and slide into a fence and she would be driving by you eating you for breakfast"
hahahahahahaha
wtf. hahahahah.
I need to get back to jersey.
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[Nov. 29th, 2008|
11:13pm] |
pahahaha.
i love my fucking life.
and you know what stop trying to makege your self feel better about yourself. nobody would ever have a threee some witg you, you ugly piece of shit.
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[Oct. 24th, 2008|
10:09pm] |
OHHHHHKAYY
So I haven't updated in a while. I moved to denver, broke up with that trash of a boyfriend that I had oh and FUCK YOU I NEVER CHEATED ON YOU, I NEVER TOUCHED ANYONE OR ANYTHING. STOP BEING A BABY.
Anyways denver is good. I'm not here for forever, just until the end of november I hope. fuck.
so I got a job bartending/waitressing at this sports bar off of arapahoe. seriously its the greatest job I've ever had. I fucking love it. My managers are so fucking awesome and I love everyone I work with, plus martin, I.E. chef, he is the fucking shit and makes the most awesome brownies I've ever had. The only thing is, the fucking money is always...like never steady, some weeks I'll make so muchhh money and then other weeks its like nothing at all.
anyways. I'm living with my cousin and she is fucking fantastic. I love her and we have so much fun together.
BUT LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE MOST FUCKED UP WEEKEND I'VE EVER HAD IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
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Alright well, my cousin vanessa has this...boyfriend. Rob. Well basically hes a fucking piece of trash and I dont know why shes with him because she is pretty much the most gorgeous girl in the whole world.
Anyways, saturday night I had Shannon and Zach over. Ok WELL. the weekend before that we had met the guys from down the hall and partied with them two saturdays ago. And I kind of met a guy, I'll just call him...Frank. haha. Frank. Ok well you know we kinda hooked up, nothing serious had a fucking amazing night and spent the whole night talking. Well last saturday we were gonna hang out and I dont know what happened, I got too drunk and passed out real early. Well while i was passed out, I guess vanessa and rob had got home from the LODO's . Apparently ness comes out of the room ,"ROB WAS FUCKING CHOKING ME HE WAS CHOKING ME" Freakinnnngggg out. ok well so shannon and zach call the cops. some how, "frank" and all this friends got involed and heard about what he was doing to vanessa. OK well frank goes after rob, rob gets in his car vanessa goes after him and rob tries to back into her, well thats what frank saw so he stands in front of robs car rob keeps driving. So frank jumps on the hoood, punches his windshield and breaks it. Rob keeps driving, frank falls off and rob runs over his legs. FUCK THAT. so Frank wont talk to me anymore, because that fucking piece of shit rob. so then the cops come, rob gets away. OH MIND YOU, that monday he had just got out of being in jail for three months. Well the cops arrest vanessa because she gave them a fake name blahblah i dont know a couple other charges blahblah. so she gets arrested and thats when shannon and zach wake me up tell me whats going on. I'm just freaking out because ness is in jail and rob ran over frank. fuck that ugh. well i go pee and rob calls my phone so shannon answers it pretends to be me and shes like where are you i'll come get you, and he says i'm at the marriot down the street. so she calls the cops and tells them that hes there. i go down the franks friends apartment down the hall and find out if hes ok and hes like fuck this shit. i dont need all this drama blahblah. but hes ok his hand was just real fucked up. we go outside and smoke and shannon and zach are like we're going home, my mom is coming to get here. they were so scared to be there if rob came back so they leave, so frank goes to his apartment and i knew if i went home with shannon and zach, i would have puked all over myself because i was still pretty drunk when they woke me up. Well franks friend jojo stayed with me incase rob came back. so rob calls me back again like fuck you bitch i knew you were gonna send the cops and hes calling me from all these payphones and shit and i'm back and forth on the phone with him and cops for like a good fucking hour. well rob comes back to the apt breaks in through the window and jojo goes out into the living room says something to him and then jojo goes into the bathroom. well he was in there for a long time and i'm just like what the fuck is he doing in there. well i need to call the cops and tell them that rob is here so i'm like ok i'm gonna go outside and smoke and rob is like why are you taking your phone and i'm like ugh i need to call shannon and make sure she got home ok. and he was like nah youre gonna call the cops and i'm like no i'm not, rob i'm not gonna let you go back to jail all this shit. and i'm like just go turn your self in and hes like no i didnd't do anything wrong and i'm just like, well then turn yourself in. well i go outside and jojo finally comes out of the bathroom and we walk outside and the cops are standing right there to come into the building i'm like hurry go hes gonna try and get out the window. well the cops get him and arrest him fucking finally haha. omgggg he was so mad. but fuck him. so jojo leaves and slept for like 2 hours and then drove to my auntys. well that whole day we're trying to figure out how to get ness out of jail. so we get her bonds man or whatever and then she has court on monday
so I drive all the fuckin way to castle rock to watch her open hearing. since it was an open hearing you get to see all the peoples hearings from whoever got arrested during the weekend. so they do all the males first. well they get to rob and well the hearings were on video. like i could see them on a tv. well the judge is naming off the people that have a restraining order against rob and i just kinda raise my hand like, ugh can be added to the list and i tell her my name and the situation so she puts me on the list hahah. so she tells rob that i was there. and i didn't want her to do that. and right when she said that to him, he stopped looking down and looked at the camera with this look on his face like he was looking right at me like," I'm gonna fucking kill you bitch" pahaha i dont know it gives me the creeps everytime i think about it man. haha anyways so his bond is like 20,000 so he aint gettingo ut anytime soon IHOPE. so then they do vanessa lower her bond thank god and we got her out that night.
ANYWAYS THATS PRETTY MUCH IT. but it was fucked up. I feel like i haven't slept for weeks. because of that shit, and then work this week. I worked everyday this week haha which never happens.
anyways, my grampa is doing a little better. hes still sick but he should be ok.
OH AND LAST WEEKEND, I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO TO JERSEY. and i fucking wish i would have.
and i'm getting another tattooo tommorow! i can't wait. ahhhhhh
alright time to hang out with the captain. peace.
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[Aug. 8th, 2008|
2:38pm] |
so basically I am just a life ruiner. I'm done with everything. I'm just gonna work and go to school. And that's it. The craziest things keep happening to me. I litteraly keep seeing red cardinals flying fast as he'll chirping like crazy like something is chasing them. I keep having dreams that derek is murdering me in ways that I am deathly afraid of. Like drowning or cutting my arms and legs off. I'm not really scared of dying but those things make me scared.
I've been over my gramparents house slot since I've been out here and EVERYTIME they aren't looking I cry. I can't lose them. Or anyone. Especially them. My Grampa and my uncle stevewere the only father figures I had growing up and uncle is gone and I can't lose my Grampa too.
All I know is I have a bad feeling about sitting in this garage. I'm gonna go inside and take a show.
P.s. I'm sorry
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[Jul. 31st, 2008|
4:21am] |
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Still trying to figure out what I want in life. As of right now... Tattoos. That's all I want is tattoos. It sounds like someone is being buried out side. Weird. Night!
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[Jul. 24th, 2008|
3:07am] |
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so basically I ruin everything. I mean could I honestly make life any worse? I really hate myself. And honestly I'm probably the shittiest girlfriend in the world I don't know why I have to be such a bitch all the time. I constantly feel like I need to defend myself. All I can say is I'm sorry and you didn't deserve any of this. And I pray to god you find someone that will never hurt you again. Because I know you would never hurt anyone. Please end my life? All I know is.....LOML.
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[Jun. 28th, 2008|
7:57pm] |
I'm starting to realize more and more and accept the fact that i'm probably gonna be going to school this semester. god damnit.
p.s. everything on my body hurts. and i hate you for being a dick to me about us hanging out today because you know i thought we could be friends and hang out but nah you had to be dick so now i know why i stopped hanging out with you man.
my mom and i ordered pizza hut today...it was grozz.
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[Jun. 28th, 2008|
2:39am] |
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So basicallly I've been thinking about highschool a lot. You know like I dont miss it but I miss....that period of time. I dont know... you know like...staying out till like five in the morning and waking up at six thirty. haha mannnn. i dont even know. I was just thinking about prom 05 when like i went with natalie. hah mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..
I don't know. I haven't really been drinking as much. so thats always good, but I still want to like all the time it's reallyy not good news. I hung out with mike danunzzzzzzioo like two weeks ago when i bumped into him down the shore that was ptterrereetyy cool. I don't know it made me miss bartending schoool like madd a lot. Any ways I really hate tis computeradora that johnnyh and derek got it sucks a lot like everytime I'm on myspace it like sucks because it brings up this whole like erroro thing thats lieke bullshit and it raelly misses me off bad. but whatev i can;'t be gigennnting mad over a compter. but anyways i love george lopez it rullzzzz. i miss my familia a lot a lot and i really wish i could see them right now. somethings wrong with me hahaha i dont even knw i really shoudn't write it in a livejournal enetry but anyways yeah somethings messssedd upp. but i dont knw
i need a new job. I wanna go to colorado around my birthday but i can't because i have a doctors appt. but i also dont want to go outt t here until mandys has her babgy in august.but she might have it sooner i mean seriously what do those docotrs know? haha i dont know but i miss her and ican't wait to see her baby. shes gonna be so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute. i miss my old manager brandon he was awesomeeeee. jimmy just told me that i was weak it kinda pissed me off but he probably was joking. anyways i reallllllllllllllyy miss jim kelly a lot a lot and i dont know why we havn't even hung out this summer a lot
ok so really what i want for my birthday is
booze haha
planet earth dvds
the new iphone
money for my tattoo
ashlee to talk to me
books about leonardo da vinci but not really i mean i'll like them for like a minute and then i'll never read them but i might.
more dermal anchors.
clothes only from abercrombie and hollister because reawlly even though i hate shopp[ing there i always know that if i go in there extra small will always fit me no matter what and i will never have to try on clothes it rules actually whatever even though their clothes are reaalllly plain whatever they fit thats all that maters
mayube like a spa treatment i dont know haha they just feel nice
annndd too see my family but that shouldn't even bee a big deal
i wanna call ashlee i have her number but i'm so scared likewhat if she like....hangs up on me man i wouldn't even know what to do! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know i just wanna call her and tell her how sorry i am :( i miss her
anyways. derek pretty much rules at life. and so does parrot bay hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. hahah kill my job and blow it up into a million piezzezzzz plezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz haha. anyways.
someone buy me new between the buried and me shit. haha i dont know i wanna meet them and hug all of them hjollllllllllllaaaaa
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[Jun. 19th, 2008|
10:19pm] |
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HOLLA HOLLA @ ME
nah but for real i wanna go to wildwood. someone hook me up
AND DOES ANYONE KNOW WHO CAN FIX CAMERAS? MINE IS FUCKKKKKEDDD UP AND I DONT KNOW WHY. HELP!
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[Jun. 8th, 2008|
12:51pm] |
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Well yesterday was the worst best day
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[Jun. 4th, 2008|
1:58pm] |
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GOT THE WHOLE TOP DIAMOND AND THE BOTTOM ROW GOLD.
the other day i hit a cat. it was so horrible i never felt like more shit in my whole life. i'm drivin right and like i couldnt stop man i hit it and then it flipped about 394293 times and then i hit it again. DUDE OMG. I just like cry everytime i think about it.
so all my managers hate the shit outta me. whatever though. they tell tony that i'm lazy blahblah oh kayy first of all asshole i'm not fucking lazy at work i do all the right shit all the time and i always show up ten minutes early. and because of max and phillieper always talkin shit to tony..tony fucking hates me now. which sucks a lot. he told me the other day that i get on his nerves. wtffffff man i never even talk to him how can i get on his nerves. UGH fuck. i just need to find a new job. I cant go somewhere and work where they all fucking hate me. like i dont understand what i do so different from anybody else that works there. What do all the girls get on the fucking counter and do a fucking tap dance or something? FUCKKKK YOUUU. fucking stupid dick heads.
but you know what vladi is actually nice to me. except today he told me that nose ring makes me look ugly haha so that kind of made me upset. but i'm not taking it out so whatev.
last fri jimjim and i went to jerzdev to get my hips done. mannnnn it sucked but they look cuttee so it was worth it.
lately i've been having some crazyyyyy fucking dreams. some of them are like....so amazing but most of them are so creeepy.
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[May. 24th, 2008|
2:16pm] |
I should probably stop drinking haha. drunken words are sober thoughts.
anyways my job sucks, blah blah blah I can't think of anything else to complain about.
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